maybe this is just jealousy nature of a woman.
the more i try to oppress it,
the more prominant it appears to me.
maybe this is all karma.
each time, best friend had sth happening.
ill also start having weird syndroms.
i really sensed it this time round.

i thought i had got it all straightened out.
but well,
sometimes, what you think and actions just doent comply
at least, not so easily.

i missed my good old friends..
classmates,
in school sj people,
other sj people.

why do i suddenly feel so ignored?
i feel like a substitute.
placed at the right bottom of the list.
its undeniable.
why?
i hate it.
i'm going to pull myself out first,
cos, im scared that ill fall,
thinking that someone's behind me,
when thats not the case.


to simplify things, i feel like im losing my friends,